Saturday, April 14, 2007
And so it goes on...
I still can't seem to find anything to write. For various boring reasons, I haven't really been in the mood. At least partly I'm stuck between the desire to write intelligent relevant comment - not least because I want to impress my small readership - and what feels like my need to just witter inconsequentially...
So what follows is mostly the latter. Be warned.
I've been off a few weeks, sort of, but I don't feel any more relaxed. Work continues to bug me. Which is shit, frankly, because sometimes it feels like all I'm good at. I think it speaks of a deeper self loathing because I'm so disorganised. Laissez-faire, you might say, if you were as pretentious as I am.
My best friend has returned from Africa t get married. I was honoured to be asked to be one of his best men (3rd time as a double act for me... is this fashionable, or am I not quite good enough to pull it off alone?) Clearly I'm pleased about this, but so far haven't really contributed anything... I'm actually embarrassed at how little help I've been. This isn't helping my self esteem.
On a lighter note, I discovered another medical blog today, which has brightened my day a bit. Especially a post about the dreadful habits men have of observing their female colleagues a bit too closely during CPR. (However, I'm confident that scientists will discover a gene that codes for looking down tops, and then we can blame it all on that.)
I'm going to try and ease my aching brain with a visit to my God-Daughter. Lunch with her folks always helps ground me a little, which can't be a bad thing. Then, this evening, I think I'll get drunk somewhere and make a fool of myself. Another great leveller.
I'm moving jobs in a couple of weeks, so expect exciting drivel about my scramble to pass my end of year assessment, and then the crap inherent in moving hospitals.
Oh, and I've gotta dress as Puck for the wedding. Costume ideas, anyone? (I quite want to wear an 18th century frock coat, but can't quite seem to make it relevant...)